HOLY SHIT! I havent written in this thing in foorrevver. ill try to catch everyone up real quick like. as you all know, im livin in va beach with my baby daddy and of course our son who will be a YEAR old in less than a month! oh my how time flies. so anyway, after i moved to va beach i got a job at hooters (big suprise). tyler and i have been livin with his uncle on the beach in a sweet beach house. it was only supposed to be until we found an apartment, but tylers uncle and his family didnt like it here so they moved back to oklahoma. well since he had already paid for a year, we're stayin till the years up...thats in march.

josiah is doin great. hes such a rascal. if hes not gettin in to somethin hes sleepin. he is so crazy and has such a personality. my parents moved to pittsburgh recently. so the first week of sept. josiah, my friend tabitha and i drove up to see the fam. my moms dog growled anytime josiah was in the room, now josiah goes around growlin at everyone. its the cutest thing. and when i shake my finger no at him, (yes, i actually tell him no) hes shakes his back at me. guess we know who the boss is. he is such a trip. im havin his birthday party on the 3rd. i cant believe hes almost 1! man, its crazy.

tyler and i went through a bit of  a rough patch, but we're over it now and things are better than ever. hes still workin for his uncles construction company. i was workin at the hooters here but my last day was sat. im startin my new job on wed. im gonna be sellin cars at one of the biggest dodge dealerships around here. im so excited. ill let you know how that goes.

so those are the important things i guess...everything else is just day to day filler. i did make some friends out of the girls i work with. we went bar hopping a few times. it was a blast, i finally got to drink legally in a real bar. lol. thats all.

this is gonna be may last entry for a long time. the movers come tomorrow at the ass crack of dawn. im so scared. how do you be excited or happy about something, when it means you have to give up so much. im gonna miss my family and friends and hawaii sooo much. just think, all the times i moved outta my house...i couldnt get away fast enough. now im holding on with everything i have. so, for those of you who read this, aloha. im gonna miss everyone and everything about this island.

to my sisters...im gonna miss you two more than anything. i dont know what life will be like without you. a lot more quiet thats for sure...but i like the noise. you two mean everything to me and you better take care if each other while im gone. i know youre still gonna fight, but remember that youre on the same team. dont gang up on each other and dont ever forget how much you love each other. a lot of people arent lucky enough to have sisters, much less sisters they can get along with. after all the friends have come and gone and all the boyfriends have also come and gone, youll still have each other. and you guys still have me, no matter what. please be good to mom and dad. they always mean well. and if you dont understand now, trust me, when you have kids you will. they're just lookin out for you. and yes, sometimes they are right and sometimes they even know what theyre talkin about. so listen to them every once in a while. but dont tell them i said that  i love you so much. if you ever need anything, im only a phone call away.

ericka: please be careful. you know what im talkin about. dont let someone else control your life. youre young. its not time for you to settle down yet. youre just gettin started and if you let someone hold you down, youre gonna have a ton of regrets. if what you and shawn have is love, hold on to it. but dont let it stop you from being who you want to be or doing the things you want to do. and spend some time with marissa...youre not gonna be livin together forever and if you dont, youll wish you had. i love you ericka!!!

marissa: if you keep runnin your mouth like me, youre gonna end up bein grounded like me. thank you for being so helpful with josiah. i dont know what i would have done if you werent there to run up and down the stairs for me or hold him everytime i took a shower. you held him even if he cried and played with him until he would smile. i know its gonna be hard for you when we leave, but try not to take it out on the family, especially ericka. theyre gonna be hurtin too. youre strong and i know youre gonna be just fine. youre a fighter, just like me. i love you marissa!!!

katie: what can i say? youre my bestfriend. no one has ever been there for me the way you have. when i needed a place to stay, you took me in. i didnt have a car, you drove me around. oh man, this is the second time ive cried  i dont even know how to put it in words. youve been the best friend anyone could ever ask for. we lived together for almost a year and only fought once and to this day that remains our only fight. that says a lot. ive never doubted you. i trust you with my life and even more, i trust you with josiah's life. i know its been assumed, but never said properly...but you are the only person i would want to be my sons godmother. since the day you found out i was pregnant youve supported me and youve been by my side ever since. i love how you care about him and i know you would do anything for him. a lot of my friends drifted when i couldnt party anymore, but you remained consistant. youve never let me down and i know you would never let josiah down.thats why youre movin to va beach with me.   i love you katie. things arent gonna be the same without you. im gonna miss you so much.

so, virginia beach here i come. as of tuesday im out. take care kids. *alooooha*

i just realized that my comp is gonna be gone on friday. what the hell am i gonna do. this is what i do with my life these days. four days is a long time to go without, when your life revolves around it. guess when i get to virginia ill be too busy for a bit to worry about it. im gonna be so tense. im gonna have a lot of stress to work off

6 days and ill be gone. its sad. i know ive said it and ill keep sayin it. ive been here for what seems like forever. i dont know how people leave this place.

speaking of leaving, mike called lastnight to say goodbye. im so proud of him. its not gonna be easy, but i know he can do it. keep your head up mike. and keith with graduating bootcamp, thats beyond awesome. when i talked to him the other day he sounded like hes doin good. and of course tylers workin construction. man, i remember when they were the three musketeers. now theyve all grown up. i feel like were all gettin so old. its just madness.

today was a day of pampering. got a pedicure and my hair highlighted. made me feel pretty. probably the first time since josiah was born. ive been lookin rough for a little while. but thats alright cause now youd never know  what else...got josiah another baby book. jj's mom made an awesome scrap book with tons of pictures, now this one is more for baby's firsts. its sooo cute. im excited to start it, probably tomorrow.

i gotta start packin my suit case tomorrow too. i know it seems early but the movers come friday. so i gotta see what i have room for and what has to go. i know if i wait till thursday i wont have everything i need or ill pack too much. besides me and katie are goin up to north shore thursday. so im gonna pack wed. then double check thursday night. so hopefully ill have no regrets. im gonna have to live out of a suitcase for two months. its not even so much my stuff im worried about, mostly josiahs. no way can i fit all of his toys in a suitcase. so i gotta find his favorites and still make room for his clothes and other everyday necessities. ugh, now im stressin. i wish i could bring more luggage. but since josiah doesnt take a seat, he doesnt have a ticket, so he doesnt get luggage. i still cant believe its gonna take two months for them to deliver my stuff. thats right around the time were comin back for erickas grad. oh well, im sure itll get worked out. anyway, i worry too much.

i gotta clean my room again. cant do it now cause josiahs sleepin. but since i know it needs done im gonna think about it all night. ugh, im never gonna get to sleep. i thought these past three weeks would drag...but i swear the days have just dissapeared. i have so much to do.

i better get a new drivers license (i lost mine forever ago) and forward my mail. those are two musts. no matter what. hopefully tomorrow sometime. i wish i still had my car, all this would be much easier.

think i can stop bitchin now...for now. ugh the stress. nite.

finally, a clear day. katie and i finally got to drive around and take pics. today we went around the south shore. some of the pics are on my webshots for those who care to see them. hopefully thurs we'll head up to north shore, then bellows on sat. it's really sad. we did a lot of reminising (damn i cant spell) everywhere we went was full of so many awesome memories. its hard, but its time to be an adult.

anyway. there are some other new pics on my site too cause im a loser and i cant sleep at night lately. it gives me somethin to do.

*aloha*